Oh Philly....

I know I dont update this much..but today I felt inspired. It has been unseasonably warmish outside and it is wonderful. The weather is putting off the inevitable winter slump that will come shortly. Where me and AJ hole up inside and play wii. Anyways, today on my walk I enjoyed the lovely sights of philly. The first site was the dead squished rat that I almost stepped on. Unfortunatly unlike last time, this rat was not fully squished just squished in the middle. So he had a full face and a full tail and IT WAS HUGE. Needless to say I screamed outloud and ran across the street before I realized even what I had done. Sometimes I think I forget I am in public when I do these things. Then on my walk home this woman motions to me to take out my earplugs. So I did (WHY!?!?) and she asked me where the subway was. I told her and then looked at her outfit. This woman was wearing two pairs of pants with shorts over them and she had socks on but no shoes. Lovely. I think this woman needed more than the subway. You know what is it about the homeless in philly, it was like when they cleaned up NYC they loaded up the craziest homeless people on a bus, drove to philly and said, "Here guys this is you new home, enjoy!"

Car Doors

Dear City Drivers,
Just an FYI- People actually drive on the roads so when you swing your door open without looking for bikers that is very dangerous. Also, there are two doors on your car, if you need to put your baby in the car or your purse in the back seat or your are just looking for something...USE THE SIDEWALK SIDE DOOR. I cant tell you how many of your butts I have almost hit because you are daddling in the rode. Get a damn Clue!

Stink, Stank, Stunk

The dog days of summer have finally arrived, ugh, dont get me wrong I LOVE summer, but these days are killer. I dont mind sweating the constant slime that covers my body this time of year makes me just feel gross. Also I never spent much time in this city during the summer when I was in college, so I never experienced a true Philly summer until the past few years and I must say it is rough sometimes. The worst part is the smell. On my drive to work I go from the Italian Market to Chinatown and I must say there are variations of this smell throughout the ride and the only way I can describe it is like dirty, rotten vagina smell. I know that is foul but so is the smell. I almost threw up on my ride home from work the other day. I mean come on Philly get rid of the trash, I must admit myself after coming back from vacation our trash smelled like that, so I can totally understand. BUT we quickly cleaned it up. There are areas in this city I swear smell like that EVERYDAY. Someone PLEASE clean it up!

Sorry Blog....

I have been a bad blogger. I have been kinda not feeling 100 percent myself, so I didnt want to bring down my blog with my complaning.

So anyways...an update, I have decided that I wanted to start looking into graduate school. I was always someone who poo-poo'd myself going, because I didnt know how I would pay for it and I thought it would be better to learn on the job to be a stage manager, but as life woud have it I seem to be stuck in role that I am not in love with so I have decided that I might have to go to grad school to get the experience to do what I originally set out to do. Another reason is that I have been fighting the ineviable need for healthcare and getting more education would help me find a job that will provide me with healthcare without cripping my ability to be in the arts. So that is that and I still dont really know how I am going to pay for it, but I will figure it out. I just need to find something that is going to make me happy.

On another note; AJ is convinced that I need to write a little book on the weird things I have seen in this city. To add to it, yesterday I was at ACME having a kind of distracted trip to the supermarket. I dont food shop well by myself, I seem to wander for about 30 minutes before I realize how to get down to business. I think the supermarket is the most distracting place to shop. Just too many options and they mostly all look good and then I get hungry and want to eat. So anyways back to my story, after 10 minutes of wandering I realized that maybe I should get a hand cart, I grab one and after another 5 minutes I drop something on mine and another guys foot. I look down and realize I must have grabbed two carts and they finally decided to seperate. Luckily the man thought it was funny and we shared a laugh, thank god it could have been bad. But I went to return the hand cart to the pile I originally got it from and as I walked over to the pile a man was signalling to me to move. I just ignored him and just chalked it up to a impatient person. So I put the cart down and backed up only to see that I was walking in the middle of a really creepy looking dude being arrested. Needless to say it totally creeped my out and I slinked away thinking maybe next time I should pay more attention.

Rain, rain go away

I cant handle this rain anymore. Summer is my favorite season. Its the one season thats puts life into my step, I feel like myself in the summer. But right now I couldnt be more depressed. I have no job, nothing to do and I am STUCK in the house, because if you venture too far away from it you might get stuck in one of the daily terrental downpours that have plauged the northeast for the past month. I love Oregon, its beautiful, but I dont live there for this reason alone. This constant insesant rain. Well also there is minimal theatre there. But still its this weather that keeps me away.
On another note, I am having this problem. I am at a crossroads in life. I want to move forward you know become the person I would like to become, move forward in my carreer, but I feel like I keep getting placed back into a niche. The small companies dont like me because I have worked with too many larger places, but I am not qualified enough to get the jobs I would like at the larger companies. I am pretty sure every 20-something goes through this at one time in your life. When are you quailified enough to take the step to move to next level. Are you ever? I had a professor in college tell us that she was waiting for the right time to have a baby, but then she realized that there was never a right time for these kinds of changes in your life and you just have to go for it and then deal with the consiquences. I truly believe in that, but what if you feel that the step is too much to fast, do you do it anyway, or do you wait...and if you wait are you going to just stay were you are and then never move forward. But then I keep telling myself the right thing will come at the right time, I just home I am ready for that when it comes.
See this rain has given me too much time to dwell on things. I cant take it anymore.

Time for Rest.

You know what I have come to the decision, that no matter what you do, whether it be your favorite thing in the whole world or you do it to make money, You always need a day off. I am on my way to nine days without a day off and I am on my last drip of energy. I just cant do it anymore. I dont know think it is ok that anyone should go a long time without a single day off to not think about work and not go to work. Every person in my cast is at each others throats and they are ready for a rest. The worst thing is when you realize everyone is as cranky and tired as you because then you just get on each others nerves.

On top of not having a day off, we are in the midst of moving. I love moving because I think it gives you good change in your life that I cant live without, but there has been a few bumps in our moving road and I just need a day when I can choose what my day entails.

Weight Loss

Nothing is more discouraging about losing weight than the fact that you always lose the best weight first. I must say seeing my bust line get smaller is very depressing. Also the incesant soreness is killing me, I could barely walk to the bathroom last night. I almost fell down the steps trying to pee, which is kinda scary when you are pretty much sleepwalking.